respect?

lets start on a bad note.. i just mullered my finger.
ever thought about exactly why you were ever put on this earth, there must be a reason. why would people have a lifetime of nothing and then die. So, ive been thinking maybe im just here to fuck up. Or have you ever just thought to yourself, sorry where's my respect? you could pour your heart and soul out on someone and get absoloutley nothing back, but why? i get the fact that everyone's not the same. but there's morals in life. you can't just fuck around doing what the fuck you want all of your life,, can you? because im sorry but I'm not that kind of person. Few years ago i knew exactly who i was, and now.. well idk. But no one wants to hear my problems.The only reason im writing this is to get everything off my chest and pretend that somebody who care's might read it. but here goes im gonna complain and if you dont like it, dont keep reading simple.[:

i can only think of one relationship where i've ever felt respected and that was with the person I'm still in love with :[ but i might have fucked that one up too, by making out with him. ive been used and abused SO much.. and i know if this relationship does'nt happen soon, i'll be off the rails in no time. ....once again. urgh, I just want him to love me. like before <3
i got thrown away today, well that's what it feels like, turns our he's got a habbit of using & abusing.. for money.. for hatred. idk. So, he doesn't care? well take this because your making me dont wanna give a shit about you anymore your worse than dani at pushing people away, and your taking your addiction way too far. get help. but guess what? exactly who care's about your problems? but just remember, you dont know everything.

might write more later, fuck knows. sorry about that moan, anyone who cares.
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